It occurred to me quite promptly recently that even though I have lost my mother to cancer at a relatively young age, I still consider myself to be one of the lucky ones. It may be the perspective my mum taught me – to always remember what you have, rather than what you don’t, but I feel blessed that she was such an amazing person and I was lucky enough to be her daughter.
** Warning! This post contains an experience that may be difficult for some people to read **
My Easter sucked. It was meant to be 4 days away camping as a family, becoming grounded, breathing in that beautiful, clean air, getting back to nature and sleeping on the ground. Instead, I had a miscarriage.
I once had a client who told me that their life was fine and dandy until she turned 30. After that, people kept on dying, tragedy kept on striking and she was left feeling suffocated and lonely. I had never really thought about the loss in my life until this client came along and interestingly, I had not been touched by grief much before I heard her story. But since then, much has changed.
I don’t often get sick, so when I do it becomes a mission to seek out answers.
First step was my metaphysical anatomy book. You’ll know about this book if you’ve ever had a session with me and had any kind of ailment. It’s my favourite. I could feel the beginning of bronchitis, so I muscle tested to the relevant part for me… Working too hard and not letting my inner truth guide me was the gist of the message.
More and more clients are coming to me with the same problems. Stressed out and exhausted. Why are the expectations on us so high? And why was it a surprise when my naturopath said I was the first person to come to her with stress levels at 0 out of 100?
Want to get rid of your eczema? Apart from Kinesiology, which can tell you what food sensitivities, environmental toxins and stressors are affecting your skin, a temporary solution is to visit the beach and bathe in the salt water and stand in the sun for a short time (no burning, that’s counter productive and dangerous). My dad always said the sea water cures eczema!
I’ve always maintained that the issue with excess weight is the emotional side of eating. Until we sort out these issues, we simply can’t expect the weight to shift. But recently, I’ve discovered Dr Susan Peirce Thompson and she has outlined the very reasons we find it difficult to lose weight – from a scientific perspective.
Last weekend I had the opportunity to receive my Level II Reiki Certificate from my colleague, very good friend and Reiki Master, Nicki Kuurman. What an amazing and empowering journey! And the timing couldn’t have been better – having just lost my mum and more recently my grandmother. The benefits are immediate, the technique is simple and most importantly the impact is powerful.
Although grieving is not a ‘job’, I’m reminded today of what my mother used to say about parenting. She would often remark that the hardest job you’ll ever have is to raise a child – and they don’t come with a manual. I’m reminded of this because, in the midst of my grief, I feel helpless. And in a lot of ways it’s similar to becoming a parent.
It has been a horrible week. Strangely normal, eerily ‘back-to-the-grind’ but overall horrible. Yesterday marked 4 weeks since my mum passed. It marked 4 weeks and 3 days since I last spoke to her. It marked a whole heap of new levels of missing someone. It also marked the first true realisation that I was never going to be able to pick up the phone and ask her for advice. Then I heard someone talking to their mum on the phone. It was meaningless, it was simple, it was brief, but it was enough.