There was a reason I was in a rush to post my last post. You have to capture the good times and keep them as fresh in your mind as long as you can. Because it doesn’t take long for the wave of this horrible process to dump you down and smash you. Every day is different. Every day brings its own challenges. Every day has you learning something new about yourself.
Today was brilliant. Absolutely brilliant. After yesterday’s kinesiology session, today I was with my kinesi and reiki besties to get some homework sorted. And what a relief! They allowed me to be worked on as much as I needed (they were chuffed to get some homework under their belts too) and really made me accountable for my spiritual side, not just the physical.
I’ve already alluded to the fact I know my balance is out of whack. I’m focusing too much on the physical, the nutritional, with not enough emphasis on the spiritual. Well that came to a head today in my kinesiology session. My kinesiologist doesn’t take crap from me – that’s why I love her. The most honest, caring, intuitive natural therapist you may ever cross paths with.
It’s been a bad week. And I’m hoping this is rock bottom. Never thought I’d hope for that day to come. Now it’s emotionally painful, physically painful, mentally exhausting and utterly demoralising. I’m actually at the point where I don’t want to use my kinesiology, I just want to recluse into my house, dig a hole that I’ll never climb out of. I’m living my own private hell.
People have told me I’m crazy all my life. I might now actually start agreeing with them. I went swimming at Port Phillip Bay (Melbourne). Yes, that’s pretty crazy in itself. But I did it in the MIDDLE OF WINTER! Sunday 27th July people! THAT kind of crazy. Apparently it was 16 degrees? My feet disagree.
At the end of 20 days, overall, I’m happy with my progress. There’s ups and downs and just when I think I’m getting on top of things, I wake up with a red raw neck. It seems to be my neck that’s the main drama. My face is just dry, my rash is out of control on my tummy and upper legs, but none of that is red raw.
My approach to healing envelops the whole triad of health – physical, nutritional and spiritual/emotional. Healing must occur on all levels to ensure the body has every chance to heal efficiently and thoroughly. It’s a complete journey, not a diet or skin regime.
It should be obvious, especially to a kinesiologist (or likely any natural therapist), but when you ignore your body, you PAY for it. And for me, when I have been suppressing my issues for year on end, I really do PAY for it.
For 33 years, I have searched high, low, sideways and backwards to find the cause, triggers and sources of my eczema. At times my world was so consumed by my eczema, I chose research before sleep, supplements before food, starvation before gluten. Then after some time of being so strict and hard on myself with no results, I would throw my hands in the air in an attempt to storm out of my own life and completely give up and consume whatever food I wanted, almost in spite of myself.